I had every intention of participating in NaNoWriMo a second time around. I was going to use the opportunity to focus on finishing up the reworked story that I made a draft of last November. I continue to work through the plot holes that exist, but the was flowing much better than it was the last time I wrote it. But I continue to struggle with some of the character’s motivations.
My character is a detective who really values her job. But her life outside of detective work is quite nonexistent. Which in turn set the place of the book that rolled on spectacularly more quickly than I thought initially, jumping from one crime scene or bit of investigation to the next. This past year, I’ve been popping in and out of the narrative to fix the story and do character building. The biggest thing I found was figuring out the motivation for the character. But what drives a someone who’s just doing their job? I mean, she could be driven by success or pride in wanting to stop a killer she has been following for awhile, but it still comes back around to the detective just wanting to do well in her job. Digging into anything beyond that is the hard part. Even worse is the question of the character’s more core, personal reason for doing something
But all that is to say that I can’t find my motivation to even begin to create a scenario for Ms. Detective Nina. I’ve been out of sorts lately for a number of reasons and whenever I sit down to focus on the narrative, my mind goes blank or wanders off. It would seem that all my writing juice was spent preparing my horror anthology and prepping those stories. I knew that it would be a quick turnaround and allocated myself a few days to recover from the gruel that is editing and rewrites, but the spark hasn’t came back full force. Now, halfway through November, I want to pick up where I left off but it all seems so much. And so I quest to work my way back to write mode through reading and working on short pieces. But alas, I may have to pass on this year.
But December looks inviting and even has an extra day.